Well, I made it through the sermon and then I had to leave. My body is so fragile that sitting in the wooden pew was killing me, I hurt all over. Next time I will take some pillows. It was also very, very emotional for me. When I first got there I walked through the columbarium and saw the markers for my friends who had died since I'd last been there. One of them really touched me and brought me to tears. Dr. Dickey Hendrickson always wore bow ties and his marker had his name, the dates and a bow tie on it. For some reason that just got all over me and I burst into tears. Then I saw my friend in the Narthex who is fighting ovarian cancer. It has spread to her liver and her brain but she was smiling and happy to see me. We laughed at how skinny we both are now. We both used to be pretty hefty girls. She is a nuclear physicist who helped with the cleanup at Chernobyl which is probably where she got cancer. A hero and I admire her so much.
So, it was good and just okay. I cried all the way home. My emotions were just overflowing for so many reasons. Terri is a good preacher and I can't wait to hear her again.
Yesterday my priest Terri came to visit. I like her so much. She is easy to talk to and I can be just totally open and honest. Like when she told me someone asked her to ask me if they could come visit and I said no. The person is an energy vampire and I can't handle her right now, or probably ever. Terri actually giggled when I said no. I shared an experience I'd had with the woman and she understood. Sometimes you have to forgive people and then keep them as far away as possible.
I'm going to go to church Sunday. My friend Kim is meeting me in the Narthex at 10:15 and she promised she would stop people from trying to hug me. Don't get me wrong, I love hugs, it is just that I'm a little fragile right now and bruise easily. I'm very excited to be going to church. Terri said she expected a rather low turnout being a holiday weekend but I wouldn't care if it was just me and Kim.
I'm waiting for a kidney transplant. I have some great friends who've volunteered to give me a kidney and hopefully one of them will be a match. If you'd like to be a kidney donor for me please let me know. All it takes is a simple blood test and a kind heart to get started.
Please consider giving a kidney to someone. I'm luck to have a few people lined up for testing. There are lots of people who have been on dialysis for years that need a donor. Be a hero. Give a kidney.