"Grief ebbs but grief never ends. Death ends a life but death does not end a relationship. If we allow ourselves to be still and if we take responsibility for our grief, the grief becomes as polished and luminous and mysterious as death itself. When it does, we learn to love anew, not only the one who has died. We learn to love anew those who yet live." --Julius Lester
Yesterday I had a feeling of restless discontent. Something was wrong but I didn't know what it was or what to do about it. To add to it my blood pressure was unusually high and that made my head ache.
It finally came to me that I am lonely. Gary's mother is here for Christmas and I'm spending a lot of time with her but most of that is spent in a kind of awkward silence. We just don't have anything to talk about and what ever topic does come up always becomes something about her, her past, her school kids. I miss my own mother.
My husband works all the time. If he's not at the store he's working at home for his internet clients. If he's not working he's sleeping. I miss my husband.
I dialyze three times a week and see the same people every time. Unless I don't. Unless they've been put in the hospital or have died. I miss my health.
I have all the answers here. Get out, join a this or that, go to this or that meeting, volunteer, etc. etc. Easy to do when you have your health.
I'm at a bit of a crossroads. Do I keep blogging? Do I keep posting?
As a prank, students from local high schools have been taking advantage of the county's Speed Camera Program in order to exact revenge on people who they believe have wronged them in the past, including other students and even teachers.
Students from Richard Montgomery High School dubbed the prank the Speed Camera "Pimping" game, according to a parent of a student enrolled at one of the high schools. Originating from Wootton High School, the parent said, students duplicate the license plates by printing plate numbers on glossy photo paper, using fonts from certain websites that "mimic" those on Maryland license plates. They tape the duplicate plate over the existing plate on the back of their car and purposefully speed through a speed camera, the parent said. The victim then receives a citation in the mail days later.
Students are even obtaining vehicles from their friends that are similar or identical to the make and model of the car owned by the targeted victim, according to the parent.
"This game is very disturbing," the parent said. "Especially since unsuspecting parents will also be victimized through receipt of unwarranted photo speed tickets.
The parent said that "our civil rights are exploited," and the entire premise behind the Speed Camera Program is called into question as a result of the growing this fad among students.
The Speed Camera Program was implemented in March of this year and used for the purpose of reducing traffic and pedestrian collisions in the county. Cameras are located in residential areas and school zones where the posted speed limit is 35 miles per hour or lower. A $40 citation is mailed to the owner of the car for violating the speed limit in these areas.
The Montgomery County Police said they have not seen or heard of this prank occurring but said they will keep an eye out for people committing the crime.
"I hope the public at large will complain loudly enough that local Montgomery County government officials will change their policy of using these cameras for monetary gain," the parent said. "The practice of sending speeding tickets to faceless recipients without any type of verification is unwarranted and an exploitation of our rights."
Edward Owusu, Assistant Principal at Wootton High School, said that he heard of local students pulling the prank when the school received a call from a parent informing them of its occurrence. "I have not heard of this happening among students at Wootton," Osuwu said. "It is unfortunate that kids have a lot of time on their hands that they can think of doing such a thing." Montgomery County Council President Phil Andrews said that the issue is troubling in several respects. "I am concerned that someone could get hurt, first of all, because they are speeding in areas where they know speeding is a problem," he said.
Andrews also said that this could hurt the integrity of the Speed Camera Program. And Roseann says, "gee, ya think?" "It will cause potential problems for the Speed Camera Program in terms of the confidence in it," he said. He said he is glad someone caught it before it becomes more widespread and he said he hopes that the word get out to the people participating in this that there will be consequences.
I hope this gets widespread throughout the country. Stupid camera cops.
At 12:04 p.m. UT (5:04 a.m. Mountain US Time) on December 21, the Sun will reach its most southerly declination. Over the past six months, for people in the northern hemisphere, every day the peak of the Sun’s arc across the daytime sky has been getting lower. Well, at 12:04 UT it reaches its lowest point, and now every day the Sun will be a bit higher in the sky at local noon. It will peak on June 21 at 05:45 UT, and be at the highest point it can get. Then the process reverses.
We call those points in time the solstices. Despite the fact that half the Earth has its seasons reversed, tonight is the Winter Solstice, and June’s is the Summer Solstice. If you live south of the Equator, sorry, but that’s what you get for living your lives standing on your head. Anyway, the Winter Solstice has always been a time of celebration, because ancient people — more closely tied with the skies due to agriculture and no light pollution — knew that it meant the Sun was coming back up, and spring was coming. We celebrate it in modern times by going into debt. We’re far more sophisticated these days.
Next on the trip ’round the Sun: perihelion, January 4th!
It turns out my neighbor who shot himself is an Iraq war veteran, had been drinking all day and had a bad bout of PTSD.
So I'm throwing this pair of shoes at W for starting this fecking war in the first place and because my neighbor can't getting the help he needs.
Everyone please call or email your Senators and Congress members and remind them that we need to bailout our soldiers! Tell them to get our people out of Iraq and make sure they have all the medical and other services they need.
The Rev. Peggy S. Bosmyer, age 60 of Little Rock, died Saturday, Dec. 13, 2008. She was born to the late Thomas Bosmyer and Margarett Markland Vandiver, who lives in Little Rock. Peggy was a graduate of Helena High School before receiving her B.A. degrees in English and philosophy from the University of Arkansas at Fayetteville, her master of divinity from Virginia Theological Seminary, and her doctor of divinity University of the South, School of Theology, Sewanee. In 1974, Peggy served her internship as Episcopal deacon at Grace Episcopal Church, Pine Bluff, completing her intern curacy at St. Mark's Episcopal Church Little Rock. Upon women's ordination in the church, Peggy was the first woman ordained in the Episcopal Church south of the Mason Dixon line in 1978. She was also appointed as vicar of St. Michael's Episcopal Church, program director for the Diocese of Arkansas, which included oversight of Camp Mitchell.
In 1985, she became full-time vicar of St. Michael's Episcopal Church. In 1994, she was called to be a professor on the faculty of the University of the South School of Theology, Sewanee, for seven years, concurrently serving as co-vicar at St. James teaching mission at Sewanee. In 2001, she returned to Little Rock, accepting the call as canon missioner and vicar of St. Margaret's Episcopal Church. She was also an associate of the Youth and Family Institute. Peggy loved to preach, to celebrate the Eucharist and exercise her gifts in pastoral care. She is survived by her husband of 24 years, Dennis Campbell of Little Rock; her four children, Caitlin Margarett Bosmyer Campbell, Mary Hannah Bosmyer Campbell, Lauren "Larnie" Elizabeth Bosmyer Campbell, Michael Forrest Bosmyer Campbell, all of Little Rock; and her sister, Judy Quattlebaum of Little Rock.
There will be a funeral service held at Trinity Episcopal Cathedral, Wednesday, Dec. 17, at 11 a.m. officiated by the Right Rev. Larry Benfield, and the Right Rev. Canon Dr. J. Neil Alexander, bishop of Atlanta. Following services, there will an internment at St. Margaret's columbarium at 1 p.m.
Arrangements are under the direction of Ruebel Funeral Home, www. ruebelfuneralhome.com.
In lieu of flowers donations may be made to St. Margaret's Episcopal Church building fund, House of Prayer, and Institute for Theological Education, or the Campbell Children's College Fund, in care of St. Margaret's, 20900 Chenal Parkway, Little Rock, Ark. 72223.
1 tablespoon butter, melted 1/2 medium onion, chopped 1/4 cup melted butter 1/4 cup flour 2 cups half-and-half 2 cups chicken stock or bouillon 1/2 pound fresh broccoli 1 cup carrots, julienned salt and pepper to taste 1/4 teaspoon nutmeg 8 ounces grated sharp cheddar
Saute onion in butter until almost caramelized. Set aside. Make a roux with the melted butter and the flour. Stir constantly for 5 minutes then slowly add the half-and-half . Add the chicken stock whisking all the time. Simmer for 20 minutes.
Add the broccoli, carrots and onions. Cook over low heat until the veggies are tender for 25 minutes. Add salt and pepper. Blend the soup using a hand blender. If you don't have a hand blender then use a regular blender and blend in small batches. Be careful if you use a regular blender!!! Put the blended soup back in the pot over low heat and add the grated cheese; stir until well blended. Stir in the nutmeg and serve.
Last night around 11:30, DH and I were watching TV and we hear a gun shot LOUD, right in front of our house. I immediately get on the phone and call 911. Big commotion in the street and we hear, "Where's my other bullet, I have nothing to live for." And then bang!, second shot. I'm on the phone with 911 again saying where the hell are the police.
I see 2 guys and the wife get one guy in their pickup and off they go down the street. 30 seconds later the police show up. They drive past the house the the end of the block, then turn around. They almost drove past us again but I yelled stop! So we have 2 cop cars and they are asking me, Gary and another neighbor what happened. 10 minutes go by and we now have 8 cop cars and they're putting up crime scene tape and all that.
Mother of the wife lives on the corner with her aunt. So aunt comes down and wants to know what is going on. She was babysitting the 3 kids while the couple went to a Christmas party.
A little background here...this couple that lives across the street are as nice as pie. Hard working, church going, always time for a neighborly visit. They did put a McCain/Palin sign in their yard so I knew there was some underlying weirdness. :-)
Anyway, the aunt wants to know what is going on, cop tells her there was a shooting, she says that can't be true I just talked to niece and niece said there'd been an "accident" and she was taking husband to the ER. Yeah, well the accident involved a gun being shot TWICE right in front of my house and by God, I call the police when something like that happens you twit.
Hours later after the police left and all was calm I was laying in bed and I got tickled and could not stop laughing. I kept thinking of the guy saying, "where's my other bullet?" and the Andy Griffith show where Andy made Barney keep his bullet in his pocket.
It was one of those laugh-tension relief moments. Gary got tickled too and we laughed for about 1/2 an hour.
From http://crooksandliars.com/: HOLY CRAP: It just gets better and better...Christians stole their holidays from pagans...Israeli conscientious objectors...Putting a cross into orbit...Obama should 86 this Christianist from the Pentagon...Gimme that Old-Time Religion... 'Chuckles' Colson...Kosher collapse...How would Jesus drive?...Pastor endorses warmongering...More on faith-based terror fightin'...Who will lead the GOP's religious wing?...The racist behind Bill O'Reilly's 'War on Christmas' bullsh*t...The FundamentaList...Richard Dawkins interviews Father George Coyne...Bringing automobiles to the alter...
I don't even want to call myself Christian if it links me to these assrockets. Then again, I want to reclaim the term and call these fundie-evagelo-Repug-Huckabee lovin'-jackasses something else. Got any ideas?
I was going to my friend's internment tonight but it would mean standing outside in subfreezing temperatures for at least 20 minutes. I can't risk catching a chill, cold or pneumonia so I'm going to want for a warmer sunny day and drive up and pour a shot of some really good whiskey on his place in the columbarium.
Most of the day yesterday I actually felt good! It was wonderful. I did dialysis, shopped for groceries, cooked dinner and cleaned up the kitchen. I can't remember the last time I was able to do all that in a single day.
Tonight I'm going to my friend Simms' internment. Only a few people knew the type of friendship we had and I wish I had someone to talk to, someone to share stories with me.
It looks like baby Logan will arrive sooner than later so I'm going to work on his quilt today. For some unknown reason Katherine has chosen :::::shiver::::::: monkeys as the theme for his nursery. Apparently she doesn't know that the two most evil and vile things on this earth are monkeys and clowns. Has she never seen the Wizard of Oz??? Holy Mother of God, I'm forced to sew secret charms of protection into this quilt.
One of my favorite blogs is ONE PISSED OFF VETERAN. You'll find the link over in my side bar blog list thingy. I've learned a lot reading OPOV's links to Theocracy Watch and other sites that are keeping an eye on those "center-right" (ummm yeah) Repugs who would give us more of the last 8 years if they could because God is on their side. These people are delusional and would strip every last civil and human right away if they could. They need to be watched and I encourage you to take a look at OPOV's links.
The American Civil Liberties Union of Arkansas, has been providing counsel to families affected by the ban from the passage of Act 1. The ACLU of Arkansas wants to hear from folks who believe that they or their family will be hurt by the passage of Act 1.
If you have questions about how this initiative, which bans unmarried couples from serving as foster parents or adopting children, could affect you or your loved ones, the ACLU has prepared a FAQ about Act 1, which is available on their website www.acluarkansas.org.
The ACLU especially wants anyone who will be immediately harmed by the initiative to contact them, by December 10, 2008, if possible. For example:
- Families who may be forced to have current foster children leave their home and the children forced to leave the home.
- Any parent who, in the event of an emergency, wants his or her children to be adopted by a friend or family member who is unmarried and living with their partner.
- Children who need foster or adoptive parents and would be denied access to good homes.
- The friends and family of children who need a good home and now are ineligible to foster or adopt under the new law.
- Families who want to adopt or foster children and cannot due to the law.
If you feel you or someone you know could be impacted by the ban in any way, please email firstname.lastname@example.org or call (212) 519-7835.
I know, I've written about this before, but this "brush with greatness" was a big day for me. On 9/17/1977 (my 24th birthday) Frank Zappa played a concert at the LSU Assembly Center in Baton Rouge, LA. It was a big deal, IMO, that FZ was playing in the south but a bigger deal that it was my birthday, cause it is all about me ya know.
The concert was just amazing. Never have I heard a band so tight with such amazing musicianship. Not a single note was out of place and yet it all felt so spontaneous and free. The only problem was the sound system was a little fuzzy and distorted at times. We were 30th row center, orchestra level so we should have been in a real sweet spot acoustically.
So the concert is over and we decide to stay overnight at the Hilton instead of driving back to New Orleans. The next morning we head down to the coffee shop to have breakfast and every, single place in the coffee shop was a big mess except for *gasp* the four seats at the counter right next to Frank Zappa!!! We didn't want to disturb him so we were going to leave when he looked over and motioned us to come take a seat. The second we sat down his body guard, a dead ringer for Mr. Clean, rushed over and stood next to him. FZ motioned to him that all was okay and we told him how much we enjoyed the concert. I asked him who did the sound and he said it was his own system and his own guys running it. I just said, "oh" and he was quickly wanting to know if there was a problem. We all described as clearly as possible where we were sitting and what the issues were. He was very thoughtful, thanked us for letting him know, and said he had an idea what the problem could be. BTW, two of the people I was with are musicians and good, knowledgeable ones at that, so they were able to describe clearly the problem.
FZ could not have been kinder or more gracious. Well, he could have bought our breakfast, but that's okay.
I'm waiting for a kidney transplant. I have some great friends who've volunteered to give me a kidney and hopefully one of them will be a match. If you'd like to be a kidney donor for me please let me know. All it takes is a simple blood test and a kind heart to get started.
Please consider giving a kidney to someone. I'm luck to have a few people lined up for testing. There are lots of people who have been on dialysis for years that need a donor. Be a hero. Give a kidney.