Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Apocalypse NOW!

My mother-in-law told me she is fine that Obama (who is a muslim, ya know) was elected president because it is just another sign of the Apocalypse. So she's getting ready to be raptured and all that.

So have you noticed any signs of the Apocalypse? Here's one of my favorites from

In latest sign that the Apocalypse is all but upon us, disco is back

This is a creativity thread. Make up your best headlines for signs of the Apocalypse or link to those you've seen. Can't wait to read what you come up with!!

Happy New Year!

Friday, December 26, 2008

"Grief ebbs but grief never ends. Death ends a life but death does not end a relationship. If we allow ourselves to be still and if we take responsibility for our grief, the grief becomes as polished and luminous and mysterious as death itself. When it does, we learn to love anew, not only the one who has died. We learn to love anew those who yet live." --Julius Lester

So, are you still okay with Rick Warren?

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Origin of Love

Tommy: Have you accepted Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Saviour?
Hedwig: No, but I... I love his work.

Real good

Real bad

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

He is here.

He is here. I know not literally born in Bethlehem in a manger and blah, blah, pagan rituals, fish sticks.

He is here for me. And I am grateful.

At Easter we say "He is risen!" From now on at Christmas I will say, "He is here!"

I know, I'm totally paradoxical. I loathe and detest religiosity and yet I am such a little christian. What can I say? I loves me some Jesus!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

The Incredible Lightness of Lonely

Yesterday I had a feeling of restless discontent. Something was wrong but I didn't know what it was or what to do about it. To add to it my blood pressure was unusually high and that made my head ache.

It finally came to me that I am lonely. Gary's mother is here for Christmas and I'm spending a lot of time with her but most of that is spent in a kind of awkward silence. We just don't have anything to talk about and what ever topic does come up always becomes something about her, her past, her school kids. I miss my own mother.

My husband works all the time. If he's not at the store he's working at home for his internet clients. If he's not working he's sleeping.  I miss my husband.

I dialyze three times a week and see the same people every time. Unless I don't. Unless they've been put in the hospital or have died. I miss my health.

I have all the answers here. Get out, join a this or that, go to this or that meeting, volunteer, etc. etc. Easy to do when you have your health. 

I'm at a bit of a crossroads. Do I keep blogging? Do I keep posting? 

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Another reason to love technology!

This is just fucking awesome!!!

As a prank, students from local high schools have been taking advantage of the county's Speed Camera Program in order to exact revenge on people who they believe have wronged them in the past, including other students and even teachers.

Students from Richard Montgomery High School dubbed the prank the Speed Camera "Pimping" game, according to a parent of a student enrolled at one of the high schools.
Originating from Wootton High School, the parent said, students duplicate the license plates by printing plate numbers on glossy photo paper, using fonts from certain websites that "mimic" those on Maryland license plates. They tape the duplicate plate over the existing plate on the back of their car and purposefully speed through a speed camera, the parent said. The victim then receives a citation in the mail days later.

Students are even obtaining vehicles from their friends that are similar or identical to the make and model of the car owned by the targeted victim, according to the parent.

"This game is very disturbing," the parent said. "Especially since unsuspecting parents will also be victimized through receipt of unwarranted photo speed tickets.

The parent said that "our civil rights are exploited," and the entire premise behind the Speed Camera Program is called into question as a result of the growing this fad among students.

The Speed Camera Program was implemented in March of this year and used for the purpose of reducing traffic and pedestrian collisions in the county. Cameras are located in residential areas and school zones where the posted speed limit is 35 miles per hour or lower. A $40 citation is mailed to the owner of the car for violating the speed limit in these areas.

The Montgomery County Police said they have not seen or heard of this prank occurring but said they will keep an eye out for people committing the crime.

"I hope the public at large will complain loudly enough that local Montgomery County government officials will change their policy of using these cameras for monetary gain," the parent said. "The practice of sending speeding tickets to faceless recipients without any type of verification is unwarranted and an exploitation of our rights."

Edward Owusu, Assistant Principal at Wootton High School, said that he heard of local students pulling the prank when the school received a call from a parent informing them of its occurrence. "I have not heard of this happening among students at Wootton," Osuwu said. "It is unfortunate that kids have a lot of time on their hands that they can think of doing such a thing."
Montgomery County Council President Phil Andrews said that the issue is troubling in several respects. "I am concerned that someone could get hurt, first of all, because they are speeding in areas where they know speeding is a problem," he said.

Andrews also said that this could hurt the integrity of the Speed Camera Program. And Roseann says, "gee, ya think?" "It will cause potential problems for the Speed Camera Program in terms of the confidence in it," he said. He said he is glad someone caught it before it becomes more widespread and he said he hopes that the word get out to the people participating in this that there will be consequences.

I hope this gets widespread throughout the country. Stupid camera cops.

Here Comes The Sun

From Discover.

At 12:04 p.m. UT (5:04 a.m. Mountain US Time) on December 21, the Sun will reach its most southerly declination. Over the past six months, for people in the northern hemisphere, every day the peak of the Sun’s arc across the daytime sky has been getting lower. Well, at 12:04 UT it reaches its lowest point, and now every day the Sun will be a bit higher in the sky at local noon. It will peak on June 21 at 05:45 UT, and be at the highest point it can get. Then the process reverses.

We call those points in time the solstices. Despite the fact that half the Earth has its seasons reversed, tonight is the Winter Solstice, and June’s is the Summer Solstice. If you live south of the Equator, sorry, but that’s what you get for living your lives standing on your head.
Anyway, the Winter Solstice has always been a time of celebration, because ancient people — more closely tied with the skies due to agriculture and no light pollution — knew that it meant the Sun was coming back up, and spring was coming. We celebrate it in modern times by going into debt. We’re far more sophisticated these days.

Next on the trip ’round the Sun: perihelion, January 4th!

Last day of Zappadan

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Rick Warren?

What a big fuck you to those of us who believe in an inclusive and progressive Christianity. One of the reasons I voted for Obama was I'm tired of people like Warren representing Christianity.

I'm so disappointed and mind boggled and discouraged by this choice.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Update on the shooting

It turns out my neighbor who shot himself is an Iraq war veteran, had been drinking all day and had a bad bout of PTSD. 

So I'm throwing this pair of shoes at W for starting this fecking war in the first place and because my neighbor can't getting the help he needs.

Everyone please call or email your Senators and Congress members and remind them that we need to bailout our soldiers! Tell them to get our people out of Iraq and make sure they have all the medical and other services they need.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

What would you throw at W?

I have to admit I love the shoe-throwing guy! What would you throw at W to show your complete distain for him and the last 8 years?

I'm kinda liking this pile of rotten vegetables!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

May light perpetual shine upon her.

The Rev. Peggy S. Bosmyer, age 60 of Little Rock, died Saturday, Dec. 13, 2008. She was born to the late Thomas Bosmyer and Margarett Markland Vandiver, who lives in Little Rock. Peggy was a graduate of Helena High School before receiving her B.A. degrees in English and philosophy from the University of Arkansas at Fayetteville, her master of divinity from Virginia Theological Seminary, and her doctor of divinity University of the South, School of Theology, Sewanee. In 1974, Peggy served her internship as Episcopal deacon at Grace Episcopal Church, Pine Bluff, completing her intern curacy at St. Mark's Episcopal Church Little Rock. Upon women's ordination in the church, Peggy was the first woman ordained in the Episcopal Church south of the Mason Dixon line in 1978. She was also appointed as vicar of St. Michael's Episcopal Church, program director for the Diocese of Arkansas, which included oversight of Camp Mitchell.

In 1985, she became full-time vicar of St. Michael's Episcopal Church. In 1994, she was called to be a professor on the faculty of the University of the South School of Theology, Sewanee, for seven years, concurrently serving as co-vicar at St. James teaching mission at Sewanee. In 2001, she returned to Little Rock, accepting the call as canon missioner and vicar of St. Margaret's Episcopal Church. She was also an associate of the Youth and Family Institute. Peggy loved to preach, to celebrate the Eucharist and exercise her gifts in pastoral care. She is survived by her husband of 24 years, Dennis Campbell of Little Rock; her four children, Caitlin Margarett Bosmyer Campbell, Mary Hannah Bosmyer Campbell, Lauren "Larnie" Elizabeth Bosmyer Campbell, Michael Forrest Bosmyer Campbell, all of Little Rock; and her sister, Judy Quattlebaum of Little Rock.

There will be a funeral service held at Trinity Episcopal Cathedral, Wednesday, Dec. 17, at 11 a.m. officiated by the Right Rev. Larry Benfield, and the Right Rev. Canon Dr. J. Neil Alexander, bishop of Atlanta. Following services, there will an internment at St. Margaret's columbarium at 1 p.m.

Arrangements are under the direction of Ruebel Funeral Home, www.

In lieu of flowers donations may be made to St. Margaret's Episcopal Church building fund, House of Prayer, and Institute for Theological Education, or the Campbell Children's College Fund, in care of St. Margaret's, 20900 Chenal Parkway, Little Rock, Ark. 72223.

I love weird Christmas

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Westboro Baptist Srikes Again!

Awesome Broccoli Cheese Soup

1 tablespoon butter, melted
1/2 medium onion, chopped
1/4 cup melted butter
1/4 cup flour
2 cups half-and-half
2 cups chicken stock or bouillon
1/2 pound fresh broccoli
1 cup carrots, julienned
salt and pepper to taste
1/4 teaspoon nutmeg
8 ounces grated sharp cheddar

Saute onion in butter until almost caramelized. Set aside. Make a roux with the melted butter and the flour. Stir constantly for 5 minutes then slowly add the half-and-half . Add the chicken stock whisking all the time. Simmer for 20 minutes.

Add the broccoli, carrots and onions. Cook over low heat until the veggies are tender for 25 minutes. Add salt and pepper. Blend the soup using a hand blender. If you don't have a hand blender then use a regular blender and blend in small batches. Be careful if you use a regular blender!!! Put the blended soup back in the pot over low heat and add the grated cheese; stir until well blended. Stir in the nutmeg and serve.

And speaking of shootings...

Last night around 11:30, DH and I were watching TV and we hear a gun shot LOUD, right in front of our house. I immediately get on the phone and call 911. Big commotion in the street and we hear, "Where's my other bullet, I have nothing to live for." And then bang!, second shot. I'm on the phone with 911 again saying where the hell are the police.

I see 2 guys and the wife get one guy in their pickup and off they go down the street. 30 seconds later the police show up. They drive past the house the the end of the block, then turn around. They almost drove past us again but I yelled stop! So we have 2 cop cars and they are asking me, Gary and another neighbor what happened. 10 minutes go by and we now have 8 cop cars and they're putting up crime scene tape and all that.

Mother of the wife lives on the corner with her aunt. So aunt comes down and wants to know what is going on. She was babysitting the 3 kids while the couple went to a Christmas party.

A little background here...this couple that lives across the street are as nice as pie. Hard working, church going, always time for a neighborly visit. They did put a McCain/Palin sign in their yard so I knew there was some underlying weirdness. :-)

Anyway, the aunt wants to know what is going on, cop tells her there was a shooting, she says that can't be true I just talked to niece and niece said there'd been an "accident" and she was taking husband to the ER. Yeah, well the accident involved a gun being shot TWICE right in front of my house and by God, I call the police when something like that happens you twit.

Hours later after the police left and all was calm I was laying in bed and I got tickled and could not stop laughing. I kept thinking of the guy saying, "where's my other bullet?" and the Andy Griffith show where Andy made Barney keep his bullet in his pocket.

It was one of those laugh-tension relief moments. Gary got tickled too and we laughed for about 1/2 an hour.

Man says, "Cat shot me by mistake"

Read it all here.

Now anyone who owns a cat knows that this is not just a lie, it is a damn lie! Cats do not shoot anyone by mistake. They shoot on purpose. Always.

Friday, December 12, 2008

This is so me!

How bad does it suck to be a Christian right now?

From HOLY CRAP: It just gets better and better...Christians stole their holidays from pagans...Israeli conscientious objectors...Putting a cross into orbit...Obama should 86 this Christianist from the Pentagon...Gimme that Old-Time Religion... 'Chuckles' Colson...Kosher collapse...How would Jesus drive?...Pastor endorses warmongering...More on faith-based terror fightin'...Who will lead the GOP's religious wing?...The racist behind Bill O'Reilly's 'War on Christmas' bullsh*t...The FundamentaList...Richard Dawkins interviews Father George Coyne...Bringing automobiles to the alter...

I don't even want to call myself Christian if it links me to these assrockets. Then again, I want to reclaim the term and call these fundie-evagelo-Repug-Huckabee lovin'-jackasses something else. Got any ideas?

Hello. Goodbye.

Visit her memorial page at

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Welcome Logan!

How handsome is this little guy?

Wednesday, December 10, 2008


I was going to my friend's internment tonight but it would mean standing outside in subfreezing temperatures for at least 20 minutes. I can't risk catching a chill, cold or pneumonia so I'm going to want for a warmer sunny day and drive up and pour a shot of some really good whiskey on his place in the columbarium.

You may be right, I may be crazy.

Most of the day yesterday I actually felt good! It was wonderful. I did dialysis, shopped for groceries, cooked dinner and cleaned up the kitchen. I can't remember the last time I was able to do all that in a single day.

Tonight I'm going to my friend Simms' internment. Only a few people knew the type of friendship we had and I wish I had someone to talk to, someone to share stories with me. 

It looks like baby Logan will arrive sooner than later so I'm going to work on his quilt today. For some unknown reason Katherine has chosen :::::shiver::::::: monkeys as the theme for his nursery. Apparently she doesn't know that the two most evil and vile things on this earth are monkeys and clowns. Has she never seen the Wizard of Oz??? Holy Mother of God, I'm forced to sew secret charms of protection into this quilt.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Monday, December 8, 2008

American Theocracy

One of my favorite blogs is ONE PISSED OFF VETERAN. You'll find the link over in my side bar blog list thingy.  I've learned a lot reading OPOV's links to Theocracy Watch and other sites that are keeping an eye on those "center-right" (ummm yeah) Repugs who would give us more of the last 8 years if they could because God is on their side. These people are delusional and would strip every last civil and human right away if they could. They need to be watched and I encourage you to take a look at OPOV's links.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Friday, December 5, 2008

Good night sweet prince.

My good friend Simms died this morning. Bye for now Simms. May light perpetual shine upon you. Love, Roseann

Update on Act 1 in Arkansas

The American Civil Liberties Union of Arkansas, has been providing counsel to families affected by the ban from the passage of Act 1. The ACLU of Arkansas wants to hear from folks who believe that they or their family will be hurt by the passage of Act 1.

If you have questions about how this initiative, which bans unmarried couples from serving as foster parents or adopting children, could affect you or your loved ones, the ACLU has prepared a FAQ about Act 1, which is available on their website

The ACLU especially wants anyone who will be immediately harmed by the initiative to contact them, by December 10, 2008, if possible. For example:

- Families who may be forced to have current foster children leave their home and the children forced to leave the home.

- Any parent who, in the event of an emergency, wants his or her children to be adopted by a friend or family member who is unmarried and living with their partner.

- Children who need foster or adoptive parents and would be denied access to good homes.

- The friends and family of children who need a good home and now are ineligible to foster or adopt under the new law.

- Families who want to adopt or foster children and cannot due to the law.

If you feel you or someone you know could be impacted by the ban in any way, please email or call (212) 519-7835.

I'm sure I'd want to kill this guy if he lived next door.

Zappadan story time.

I know, I've written about this before, but this "brush with greatness" was a big day for me.  On 9/17/1977 (my 24th birthday) Frank Zappa played a concert at the LSU Assembly Center in Baton Rouge, LA.  It was a big deal, IMO, that FZ was playing in the south but a bigger deal that it was my birthday, cause it is all about me ya know. 

The concert was just amazing. Never have I heard a band so tight with such amazing musicianship. Not a single note was out of place and yet it all felt so spontaneous and free. The only problem was the sound system was a little fuzzy and distorted at times. We were 30th row center, orchestra level so we should have been in a real sweet spot acoustically.

So the concert is over and we decide to stay overnight at the Hilton instead of driving back to New Orleans. The next morning we head down to the coffee shop to have breakfast and every, single place in the coffee shop was a big mess except for *gasp* the four seats at the counter right next to Frank Zappa!!!  We didn't want to disturb him so we were going to leave when he looked over and motioned us to come take a seat. The second we sat down his body guard, a dead ringer for Mr. Clean, rushed over and stood next to him. FZ motioned to him that all was okay and we told him how much we enjoyed the concert. I asked him who did the sound and he said it was his own system and his own guys running it. I just said, "oh" and he was quickly wanting to know if there was a problem. We all described as clearly as possible where we were sitting and what the issues were. He was very thoughtful, thanked us for letting him know, and said he had an idea what the problem could be. BTW, two of the people I was with are musicians and good, knowledgeable ones at that, so they were able to describe clearly the problem.

FZ could not have been kinder or more gracious. Well, he could have bought our breakfast, but that's okay. 

Monday, December 1, 2008

49 Days!!!!!

I'm blatantly ripping from OPOV here. Give me your favorite W joke! Bring it on!!

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Letter to Santa

Dear Santa,

I've been a good girl. Mostly because I've been too sick to be bad, but that still counts as good right? Thanks so much for the early gift of President-elect Obama and a Democrat controlled Congress. I'm forever grateful for that! Here's the rest of my wish list. Hope you can make some if not all of this list happen.

  1. A new kidney. I'm grateful for all the volunteers and hoping for a match!
  2. An end to war. Ours and everyones. This has got to stop. We've got to find a better way.
  3. Economic stability.
  4. A stop to all the homophobic, deny human rights, fear based BS about GLBTs.
  5. A good solution to tax issues.
  6. Al Franken wins the recount. A long shot, I know.
  7. Health, happiness to all my family and friends. Even the ones who make me crazy.
Thanks for reading this Santa and I hope you can fit it all into your sleigh!

Your most devoted friend,

Friday, November 28, 2008

Random thoughts about random things

I understand the people who would throw W out on his ass today and let Obama take over. I wonder all the time what he will fuck up before he leaves office. I think the entire country (except the hold out neocon wingnuts) gave thanks that W is O.U.T. in a few more weeks.

Cornbread dressing is great. Bread stuffing is meh.

We got to feast with friends yesterday and everyone preferred the Chocolate Decadence cake over the Pumpkin Pie 5 to 1.

Only one eatery was open when we got home last night and yeah we were hungry. Thank you Wing Stop, you rock!

No calls from my brothers. What a shocker.

It is Black Friday. I hope all the shoppers are having a good time and the stores are making some money. I feel for all the people who work retail. Blessings to you today.

I will be working on Logan's baby quilt today.

Love to all.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Feeling Grateful

I love Thanksgiving! Here's some of my gratitude list.
  1. Kim & Pierre for inviting us to the feast.
  2. President-elect Obama.
  3. My awesome family. Even the ones who make me crazy.
  4. The best friends one can ever imagine.
  5. OCICBW peeps.
  6. A/E B'netters.
  7. My critters.
  8. My doctors and their staffs.
  9. St. Sue of Delaware.
  10. And really the number one, my husband, the love of my life.

Friday, November 21, 2008

The eyes have it!

So I go to the eye doctor yesterday and my droopy eyelids interfer with my vision so I get an insurance paid eye lift. 

Sunday, November 16, 2008

New baby on the way

We've got a new baby coming to our family. His name is Logan and he's due to be born on Christmas day. I'm having a blast shopping for baby clothes. I'm such a sap, they're all so cute I have to be careful not to buy the store.

Logan will be my nephew's second son. Having no children myself it is my duty to spoil nieces and nephews and the greats shamelessly. 

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Lunch with Els

Today started off badly when G's boss called to see if he would work today. I was looking forward to hanging out with him and getting some run-around chores done like plates on the new car, but noooooooooooo. Then my friend Els called and was in town for a couple of meetings with a nice long break in between so we went to a late lunch. I have found my new favorite Arian cuisine neighborhood restaurant! We each had a soup. Mine was thin slices of raw beef tenderloin sliced into a steaming hot broth and served up with all the regular fresh beansprouts, kefir lime, jalapenos, that gooey sweet hot sauce. Truly OMG delicious. Els had the Thai Hot and Sour soup with shrimp and crab meat. Each soup was served in its own tureen with enough for about 20 people. Sharing soup is a great way to pass time with a friend.

Els is taking a six month sabbatical starting the first of the year and taking a trip around the world. If things go well I'll be transplanted around that time so we're both off on a journey of healing and restoration. Els is an advocate for children and the Act 1 vote in Arkansas was very painful for her. 10 years ago in the county she covers there were 10 foster homes serving a population need off about 20,000 people. Today there are 8 foster homes serving a population of around 50,000.  So way to go all you anti-gay children hating bigots. Nice work.

Reading it again

What are your favorite books that you've read more than once? The ones that just never get old and still make you laugh or cry or ponder?

Right now I'm reading A Confederacy of Dunces by John Kennedy Toole again. I lived in New Orleans for a time and I swear I knew these people!

Serve it up folks! Share your favorites.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

She is the smartest person on TV. She is also on the cover of this month's Advocate. Most important, she is my top secret lesbian crush. Don't tell anyone okay?

Catch the Rachel Maddow show on MSNBC. You can also download it on iTunes. 

This made me cry

Sunday, November 9, 2008

My friend the Mad Priest

I have a friend who is a priest in the Church of England. His blog, Of Course I Could Be Wrong, is one of my favorites. Right now Jonathan is under attack by some vile people who would destroy him and his blog ministry if they could. I'm not going to mention their names or link to their site. I wish I had something wise and uplifting to say but I don't. I find these people so hideous and horrible that I'm afraid their stank will rub off on me somehow.

Martin Luther King sums it up for me, "I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality. That is why right temporarily defeated is stronger than evil triumphant."

Friday, November 7, 2008

Random thoughts on being home

Hooray! I am home from the hospital. I am so grateful for all the prayers and non prayers and good wishes.

A special thanks to Sue Taber aka St. Sue of Delaware. Through Mimi and the Mad One I have made a great new friend who has already walked the path of receiving a kidney transplant. She is a mighty blessing to me and my husband.

I am happy to be with my wiener dogs and evil kitties. 

I love getting comments from everyone. I feel like I am in a wonderful state of grace. My country has a new president and I feel real hope that I can again be proud to be an American. I feel real hope that I will get my country back.

I am disappointed with some of the awful anti-GLBT votes. I just ache for my brothers and sisters who have to live everyday with hideous discrimination and I vow to stand with them until they are free. None of us are free until all of us are free. I love you and I will stand beside you and do what I can.

I love all the people who have offered me a kidney!! 

Thursday, November 6, 2008

What a long strange trip its been

So, on Thursday I ended up in the hospital again. My nephrologist and all around great guy, Dr. Kimball said no further delays for any reason because the kidneys are landing me in the hospital every few days. Yipee skipee yahoo!!! So he turns to my new urology surgeon and all around great guy Dr. Mooney who thinks the best thing to control post-op pain will be an epidural. 

I've always been a big chicken about epidurals. The whole needle in the spine deal is just so disconcerting. Then I get the fabulous news that the surgery will be done under general anesthesia and the epidural will be put in while I'm still under. Then Dr. Whoosiewhatsis, anesthesiologist and all around not-so-good guy decides since they were doing lap I didn't need the amount of pain relief offered by the epidural. Wrong.

The alternative was big ol' whopping doses of morphine which made my blood pressure drop to 0 over 0. I was whisked off to ICU which was fine by me. BEST THING EVER was when I got the steroid shots. A side effect of this particular steroid is EUPHORIA! I didn't think I could feel more euphoric after Obama's election but man oh man, I was the most euphoric woman on the planet for a good 6 hours. 

My southern friends will understand this revelation. It turns out my nephrologist and urologist are the doctors for my brother, cousin's husband, sister-in-law's daddy, and sister-in-law's niece is nephrologist's wife's sorority sister. IOW, we're related. 

Thanks to everyone who prayed and/or not prayed.  It is cool how not prayers work too!

Love alla y'all!

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Random thoughts about random things

One of the things I'm learning while dealing with a serious illness, a life-threatening condition is to limit my contact with certain people. There are people who are helpful and supportive and these are people I want to keep close. There are people who want to make my condition about them somehow and want me to help and support them as they deal with my illness. I don't have the energy for that. There are people who want to offer opinions on what I should do or how I should behave. If opinions can be offered in love without attacking me, then I want to hear them. Maintaining relationships requires a lot of energy. My stores are limited so I have to make careful choices. Being a relative is not an automatic in either. 

I've been thinking about the generations of Southern women I grew up knowing. The women who helped form and shape me. Women who could eat bar-b-q ribs with a knife and fork while wearing white gloves and remain spotless. Women who could speak truth to power. I loved them and I miss them. I'm also one of them and that makes me proud. Yes, my silver pattern was picked out at birth, I know all the rules of proper etiquette, I know what is appropriate though I don't always write thank you notes (mother, forgive me.) 

I was listening to NPR and heard a gentleman talking about buying a new computer. When he asked Mac folk about Macs they told him all the wonderful things about their computer. When he asked PC folk about PCs they told him all the things wrong with Macs. This presidential election is similar. Democrats can tell you all the wonderful things about Obama and his plans for the nation. Republicans can only tell you what is wrong with Obama. 

Monday, October 6, 2008

Help the Bees

I want to share this information from on how we can help save the Bees!

...make your landscaping into a bee buffet. Start by avoiding flowering plants that were bred for showy features, such as sunflowers or tulips. Instead focus on a wide variety of native plants that blossom in succession, rather than one plant that blooms all at once. This provides a more constant supply of reliable food for the bees. Also keep in mind that good housing is hard to find for bees, so consider providing some options such as a specially designed bee house (check your local wild bird store or garden supply) or a bare patch for bees that prefer nesting in burrows.

In addition, support your local beekeepers by buying locally produced honey at a farmer's market or natural foods store near you. This will help keep the important profession of beekeeping financially viable. Finally, you may want to support businesses that are actively creating awareness of CCD, such as Häagen-Dazs and Burt's Bees, which makes personal care products using beeswax, supports the Honeybee Health Improvement Project, and sent out 50,000 packets of wildflower seeds to individuals for signing up on its Web site.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Why I love the MadPriest

So, what would MP do as part of the bailout?

He would take away the passports from all the directors of every company involved. He would confiscate all their US property and all of their money. He would make it impossible for them to bring their foreign funds in to the country and then he would set them and their families to work in soup kitchens for five years on the minimum wage. He knows he being easy on them but he is a Christian!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Give Me an A! or an O!

I've been on dialysis for about a month now. That has helped me to feel a lot better. I am about 6 months from being ready for a transplant.

If you are blood type A or O please consider being a kidney donor for me. I have 5 volunteers so far but we've done no testing yet for compatability. The larger the pool of volunteers the better my chances of finding a compatible match.

Please leave a comment if you will like more information. All expenses for the donor will be covered.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Scam abuse

We've all received the emails. Someone in Nigeria or Timbuktu or Salt Lake City wants us to claim our lottery winnings or help them get money out of the country or buy a $15,000 BMW for $4000 so their child can have surgery. 

My new favorite website is Oh my God, these people are just brilliant! They turn the scam around on the scammers in various, highly amusing ways. Be prepared to laugh loudly. If you don't I probably don't want to hang out with you! =) Oh, and there is much material that is not appropriate. Which is even more fun.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008


I'm officially a senior citizen now! woohoo!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

This day

I'll remember this day for the rest of my life. I'll remember waking up and emailing a friend and telling them I felt a great disturbance in my spirit that I didn't understand then turning on the television and seeing the second plane hit the WTC. I'll remember waking up my husband crying, almost hysterical, afraid in a way I've never been before or since. I'll remember watching the news all day and still being unable to really comprehend what was happening. I'll remember waiting with friends in my home town as they waited to hear from friends and loved ones in the northeast. I'll remember those who put their lives on hold so they could go to NYC and help.

I'll remember the heroes. I'll pray for those who still mourn. I'll pray for the country I love that has been abused and exploited first with this tragedy and then with political reaction to this tragedy. I'll remember this day.

Monday, September 8, 2008

I would say, "you've got to be kidding me" but I know they aren't.


My friend Els wrote me and said, "

I am looking at Sarah Palin and cannot help but wonder about her priorities.

Why would you intentionally want to embarrass your teenage daughter by publicly flaunting her in the media and proclaiming her as proof of your own convictions? How sad that Palin’s priorities are so ego’d she cannot see the damage she is causing to one who should be one of her top priorities.

My heart goes out to her child and I cannot but wonder how we as a country could ever consider one whose priorities are so screwed.

"In every child who is born under no matter what circumstances and of no matter what parents , the potentiality of the human race is born again, and in him, too, once more, and each of us, our terrific responsibility toward human life.~James Agee~

My response to her:

I have to say priorities must be a huge issue for all families where both parents have to work. Then again, why is it both parents have to work? For some, for many I think, it is because the cost of living is just so high. Then again there are many who just have to get more and more and more stuff because they think that will make them happy. Have we as a nation lost sight of what makes us happy? It isn't things, no matter how hard the sellers of things want us to believe it is.

I don't have the answers for this. I always get to the point where I believe all our problems are really spiritual in nature.

Gary and I have certainly learned to do more with less. We drive a $200 car, we don't eat out or go to movies, we use the library instead of the bookstore. It can be done. I'll also be the first to admit that getting the disability will give us the breathing room we need. I won't say no to the money!

I question so much about Sarah Palin. I don't want to say she is a bad mother, I don't know that. I do think she put herself before her children and family by thrusting them onto the national stage and the harsh glare of the media. Your question about her priorities is another reason to not want her as VP.

All along I felt John Edwards shouldn't have been running for President. His wife has a terminal illness and he should be spending all his time with her and with their small children who will have to live without their mother. His having an affair showed me his ego is just way, way too out of control for him to be an effective leader.

Where is that balance. A strong leader must have a healthy ego, an ability to ride out the making of tough decisions. At the same time a strong leader must realize they are indeed servants. I have met a few people like that in my life. Unfortunately, ego seems to be what I encounter most. really pissed me off

I find it demeaning that my political point of view is described as a "silly paradigm." I understand what it means to be liberal and I embrace it.

The definition of liberal includes:
favorable to progress or reform, as in political or religious affairs.

favorable to or in accord with concepts of maximum individual freedom possible, esp. as guaranteed by law and secured by governmental protection of civil liberties.

favoring or permitting freedom of action, esp. with respect to matters of personal belief or expression

free from prejudice or bigotry; tolerant: a liberal attitude toward foreigners.

open-minded or tolerant

characterized by generosity and willingness to give.

I ask what is "silly" about any of that? I understand that it is important to conservatives to [i]preserve existing conditions, institutions, etc., or to restore traditional ones, and to limit change.[/i] I can understand that idea while rejecting its POV. I'm fairly certain conservatives don't consider themselves silly.

I think the last 8 years have damned near destroyed the country I love, the country I want back. I don't want to be embarrassed or ashamed to be an American. I want our legacy and reputation on a global level restored and renewed. I don't think a damn thing about that is "silly."

Lies and lying liars

We checked the accuracy of McCain’s speech accepting the Republican nomination and noted the following:
  • McCain claimed that Obama’s health care plan would "force small businesses to cut jobs" and would put "a bureaucrat ... between you and your doctor." In fact, the plan exempts small businesses, and those who have insurance now could keep the coverage they have.

  • McCain attacked Obama for voting for "corporate welfare" for oil companies. In fact, the bill Obama voted for raised taxes on oil companies by $300 million over 11 years while providing $5.8 billion in subsidies for renewable energy, energy efficiency and alternative fuels.

  • McCain said oil imports send "$700 billion a year to countries that don't like us very much." But the U.S. is on track to import a total of only $536 billion worth of oil at current prices, and close to a third of that comes from Canada, Mexico and the United Kingdom.

  • He promised to increase use of "wind, tide [and] solar" energy, though his actual energy plan contains no new money for renewable energy. He has said elsewhere that renewable sources won’t produce as much as people think.

  • He called for "reducing government spending and getting rid of failed programs," but as in the past failed to cite a single program that he would eliminate or reduce.

  • He said Obama would "close" markets to trade. In fact, Obama, though he once said he wanted to "renegotiate" the North American Free Trade Agreement, now says he simply wants to try to strengthen environmental and labor provisions in it.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

I heart Dennis

I'm stealing lots of stuff from Of Course I Could Be On Vacation. Dennis posts the most hilarious things!

Friday, September 5, 2008

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Truth about the Bridge to Nowhere

During her first speech after being named as McCain's surprise pick as a running mate, Palin said she had told Congress "'thanks but no thanks' on that bridge to nowhere."

In the city Ketchikan, the planned site of the so-called "Bridge to Nowhere," political leaders of both parties said the claim was false and a betrayal of their community, because she had supported the bridge and the earmark for it secured by Alaska's Congressional delegation during her run for governor.

The bridge, a span from the city to Gravina Island, home to only a few dozen people, secured a $223 million earmark in 2005. The pricey designation raised a furor and critics, including McCain, used the bridge as an example of wasteful federal spending on politicians' pet projects.

When she was running for governor in 2006, Palin said she was insulted by the term "bridge to nowhere," according to Ketchikan Mayor Bob Weinstein, a Democrat, and Mike Elerding, a Republican who was Palin's campaign coordinator in the southeast Alaska city.

"People are learning that she pandered to us by saying, I'm for this' ... and then when she found it was politically advantageous for her nationally, abruptly she starts using the very term that she said was insulting," Weinstein said.

Palin's spokeswoman in Alaska was not immediately available to comment.

National fury over the bridge caused Congress to remove the earmark designation, but Alaska was still granted an equivalent amount of transportation money to be used at its own discretion.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Protect and defend the constitution of the United States

"Governor Palin was likely a member of the right wing militia infested Alaskan Independence Party and recorded a message for their last convention, while serving as the Republican Governor of Alaska!"

This is just too good. Now she supports a group who wants to secede from the USA.

Monday, September 1, 2008

Abstinence Only

Both Sarah Palin and John McCain back abstinence-only education. No surprises there.

What's galling is this: When the subject is a pregnancy to an unwed, minority teenage mother growing up in some (presumably Democratic) urban area, that pregnancy becomes fodder for lectures from conservatives about bad parenting, the perils of welfare spending and so on. But when the subject is a pregnancy to an unwed, white teenager from some small town in a Republican state, that pregnancy is...a celebration of the wonders of God's magnificence--and choosing life!

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Isn't it ironic, don't ya know...a little too ironic

You might have heard about Stuart Shepard, the director of digital media at “Focus Action”, the political arm of Focus on the Family. He wrote and starred in “Pray for Rain” which was allegedly just a joke. He called for "rain of biblical proportions" to drown out Obama's acceptance speech. But it was all in fun you know, just a big joke, they wouldn't really pray for that to happen. nudge, nudge, wink, wink!

And look what happened today: Aug 31st, 2008 | ST. PAUL, Minn. -- President Bush, Vice President Cheney and prominent governors decided on Sunday to skip the Republican National Convention, and the party considered shortening its big four-day event as Hurricane Gustav approached the Gulf Coast with potentially devastating strength.

My prayer is that the hurricane doesn't hit our Gulf states, that it dissipates or turns back out to sea.

I have to admit though that the irony is killing me.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Judging and all that

I called brother and apologized for judging him and nephew and hurting brother's feelings. I haven't spoken to nephew. It is not worth it to me to have hard feelings. Brother and I are on opposite ends of the political spectrum but we love and care for each other and that is what matters. I asked him to promise me that if someway, somehow Pat Robertson became king of the world and tried to put me and my friends in a concentration camp that he would hide us. He made that promise and said he would fight along side us. I sounds like a ridiculous extreme. Part of my thinking process is to look at an issue, situation or behavior and see where it could go if left unchecked. Does it lead to the highest good for all or does it lead to fear and death?

If it ain't love, it ain't God.

Friday, August 29, 2008

So what's it like?

People are asking what is dialysis like so I will give you my take on it. The nurses and techs are wonderful, caring and kind. The catheter in my jugular vein is still pretty sore and tender so they are as gentle as they can be when hooking me up to the machine.

It is noisy and there is no privacy. You're in a big room with lots of other people hooked up to machines that beep and boop. TVs (which I can do without) are everywhere. Most disconcerting to me is people are everywhere. The guy directly across from me chewed gum with his mouth open for 3 solid hours. Call me picky, but I just don't want to see that. So I arrange myself in a way that I don't see TVs or people. I just put on my iPod and create my own space.

I don't feel anything other than some pressure on the catheter. Mostly I feel like I want to go home!

Thursday, August 28, 2008

I smell smoke

Am I burning bridges with my brother and nephew? Did I strike the match? Was there a bridge there to burn?

I don't know. My brother thinks I should love and support his children no matter what. Love them, yes...I do and will. Support anything they choose? Support a decision to align with the Taliban of America? No. I can't and won't.

So where does that leave me? My spiritual mentor would say, "love them out of it." My understanding of ACIM says, "forgive them, it isn't real anyway." My heart says, "love them and stay true to yourself."

I feel like my own little personal drama that is reflected on a much larger scale in the Episcopal Church is a big life lesson for me. How do I love in this situation? What is the loving thing to do?

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

What??? No more cake???

Argh! Now I have to be on a dialysis diet. No more coconut cake. No nuts of any kind. And get this...I have to eat white bread. WTF? I need to talk to the nutritionist.

Things I learned in the first dialysis session. Dress warmly. Like Eskimo warmly. That place is cold! Reading will not happen...there are TVs everywhere and machines that beep and boop and people running around. Way too distracting for reading. iPod is a life saver. People get used to it and most everyone there slept through their treatment.

When loved ones go wrong

I recently found out that my nephew is now attending Regents University law school. When my brother gave me this bit of news I was speechless. All I could say was, "oh no!" Brother is thrilled though. I can accept my brother and his family are conservative and Republican and fundamentalist. I don't like it, but I can deal with it. Lining up with Pat Robertson is off the rails though and I am having a very, very hard time getting my head around it.

Pat Robertson! The guy who said Israeli Prime Minister Ariel Sharon, who suffered a massive stroke, was stricken by God as punishment for ceding the Gaza Strip and a portion of the West Bank to Palestinians. Yeah...Pat Robertson, who also said, "the feminist agenda is not about equal rights for women. It is about a socialist, anti-family political movement that encourages women to leave their husbands, kill their children, practice witchcraft, destroy capitalism and become lesbians."

Pat Robertson...the guy who would round up me and my friends and put us in concentration camps if he could.

I want to vomit. I want to scream. I love my brother. I feel lost.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

At least I have cake

I get to eat all the coconut cake I want. I've become a fiend for Pepperidge Farms coconut cake. I'm pretty sure it is what angels eat for breakfast. One day something will taste great, the next day not so much. Coconut cake...good every day!

Monday, August 18, 2008

Good news

I just got some good news. My kidney transplant evaluation has been moved up to this coming Wednesday. My husband and I will spend the entire day at the Univ. of Arkansas Medical Center meeting with the surgeons, nurses, social workers, financial people, parking attendants, janitorial staff, weird guy who hangs out in the hospital lobby. Should be interesting.

My top 5 downloads

  1. Anderson Cooper 360. Okay, he is one of my secret TV boyfriends but this is a good show. And really...could he be more handsome?
  2. This American Life
  3. Talk of the Nation
  4. The Onion Daily News
  5. The Moth

Sunday, August 17, 2008

How things are going...

I applied for SSI disability (you know, all the money I paid into FICA for all those years) and I've been turned down twice. I hired an attny and filed for an appeal about 18 months ago. So finally I get a hearing but it is in Dallas and I am too ill to travel. I informed the local SSI office in Little Rock 8 months ago that I was now living in Arkansas but apparently that information got filed in the ether somewhere. I was going to try to go to Dallas but I just can not do it. Prayers for a quick resolution and move to Little Rock would be appreciated.

My friend Els came today and cleaned my floors for me. That is just a wonderful gift and I am so grateful. I am hoping that my nephrologist will get me set up with some home help service this week. DH is working two jobs and I am just too weak to do what needs to be done around the house. I've always been a helper but now I'm the one who needs help. Very frustrating.

Friday, July 25, 2008

I got a new toy!

DH won an iPod Nano and now it is mine! =)
How cute is this? I love it!

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Els, snakes and +Gene

My friend Els sent me this story:

I was out camping with my family and our friends from Maui .

Greer’s Ferry Lake has been way above normal water levels since early spring, which caused many of the parks to close and an influx of campers in the furthest Northern park where we have camped for now 30 years. My quiet park was packed! One afternoon, while sitting around with the 2 year old son of my god-daughter Mikel, I heard this scream: Snake!!!. All around us there was this yelling and before I knew what was happening, right in front of our camping spot were numerous men, women and their children with axes and shovels, all ready to attack a very small, very colorful snake which totally ignorant of the excitement it was causing, was slithering across the road on its way to enter the ground and trees behind my tent.

I asked the leader, the one up front with the biggest ax if the snake was harmful. What exactly had the snake done to provoke all this?

The guy looked at me as if I was the nut. Should we not kill all snakes? All were ignorant in even identifying a poisonous from non-poisonous, still the mob lynch mentality had totally taken over and there was an excitement in the air for killing something which had an equal or maybe bigger right in being there.

Poisonous or not.

The leader of the pack finally shrugged and told me since it was heading to my tent it was no longer his problem.

I watched the snake for a while comforting 2 year old Nainoa Mountain Love, my god daughter’s son who with a name like that you know is raised in a peaceful world (Nikki told us upon hearing his name that it reeked of tree-huggers). Nainoa did not fear the snake but was scared by the unexplainable anger and close death of something that caused no harm to the earth, instead only added color.

I think of this and wonder if what is done to Bishop Gene Robinson does not come from the same ignorance our world lives in.

Mob mentality based on something our bible scared us from with only a simple word.

Monday, July 21, 2008

Monkeys are EVIL

I hate monkeys. They are evil, filthy spawns of Satan. This woman should get an assistance dog or go to therapy or get anti-anxiety meds. Her "I gotta have my monkey everywhere with me" story is idiocy.

Suit alleges monkey discrimination
Woman contends she needs animal to stop her social anxiety disorder.

Tired of her monkey being sent scampering from area businesses, a Springfield woman filed suit last week against the health department, a local Wal-Mart and Cox Health Systems. In a lawsuit filed Friday, Debby Rose alleges the three entities discriminated against her and a 10-year old bonnet macaque named Richard.

All of the defendants, who Rose sued for unspecified damages, declined to comment on the litigation, noting they hadn't yet seen the suit.

Rose says Richard helps curb her debilitating social anxiety disorder -- which can cause her to have panic attacks in public.

Because of the animal's therapeutic effect, Rose says, he is no different than a seeing eye dog. When I ask, was the last time a seeing eye dog threw feces at anyone?????????

Her lawsuit contends the Springfield-Greene County Health Department had no authority to decide that Richard is not a service animal under the Americans With Disabilities Act and, therefore, is not allowed in food establishments.

That decision was made in 2006, when health department officials sent out letters to restaurants and grocery stores, telling them not to let Rose in with the monkey.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

I am so annoyed

I'm having one of those days where everyone and everything and my 4-leggeds are annoying me. So...I'm retiring to the couch to read. Sometimes you just have to start the day over.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Bishop Greg Rickel

I love +Greg. He is a man of peace and wisdom and I'm am grateful to call him my friend. He is currently at Lambeth. Read his blog here:

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

I Like Mike

My friend Michael has moved from LV back to Dallas. Even though I've left Dallas I'm sure I'll go back for a visit and then DH and I can see Michael too. Last night DH asked why women find Michael attractive. Duh. He's got the bad boy look but is totally straight edge. He is very intelligent and creative. Most of all, he's the funniest human alive.

Michael quote of the day, "everyone gives GOD so much credit for being so awesome...yet everything he makes breaks...he is like the YUGO of creators."

Monday, July 14, 2008

Kidney donor...I'm praying for you

I don't know who will be my donor or when they will appear. I am praying that God protects them and guides them. And whoever you are, I love you.

Sunday, July 13, 2008


This word has now become a permanent part of my vocabulary.

wank·er [wang-ker] Chiefly British and Australian Slang: Vulgar.
1.a contemptible person; jerk.
2.a male masturbator.

It just seems so perfect.

Sarah Hey...major wanker

I love it!

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Kidney Transplant Update

I saw the nephrologist today.

The kidney transplant preparation has to start now. Both kidneys have to be removed. This came as a shock to me...PKD isn't just cysts on the kidneys (which never stop growing.) It causes cysts in the liver and colon. The biggest shocker is it can cause brain anuerysms too.

It has to be done w/in the next 24 months or, well, it is going to be really bad. The thought now is to get the transplant before dialysis is necessary. Transplants can also be done w/out the heavy steroids like prednasone. I'm really grateful for that.

I'm beyond emotional at this moment. I want to cry but I don't want to break down in front of Gary. He's got enough on his heart and mind without me being a big crybaby. He wants to be evaluated as a possible donor. I don't mean to be maudlin, I just believe deeply he'd be better off w/out me. I'm not suicidal and I plan to fight. I believe I've put him through more than he deserves though.

I'm on all kinds of new drugs now including Procrit at $700 a shot. That'll be $1400 a month just for Procrit. Hopefully insurance will cover it. We won't know until it is submitted.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008


I just watched Kevin Smith's movie Dogma again. I love the movie, and I really love Alainis Morrisette's song STILL played over the closing credits.

I am the harm which you inflict
I am your brilliance and frustration
I'm the nuclear bombs if they're to hit
I'm your immaturaty and your indignance

I am your misfits and your praised
I am your doubt and your conviction
I am your charity and your rape
I am your grasping and expectation

I see you averting your glances
I see you cheering on the war
I see you ignoring your children
And I love you still
And I love you still

I am your joy and your regret
I am your fury and your elation
I am your yearning and your sweat
I am your faithless and your religion

I see you altering history
I see you abusing the land
I see you and your selective amnesia
And I love you still
And I love you still

I am your tragedy and your fortune
I am your crisis and delight
I am your profits and your prophets
I am your art, I am your bytes

I am your death and your decisions
I am your passion and your plights
I am your sickness and convalescence
I am your weapons and your light

I see you holding your grudges
I see you gunning them down
I see you silencing your sisters
And I love you still
And I love you (still)

I see you lie to your country
I see you forcing them out
I see you blaming each other
And I love you still
And I love you still

Pull your damn pants up

I don't get the saggy pants fashion...never have. Apparently in Flint, MI they've decided it is indecent exposure for your boxers, briefs, thong or crack to show. I'm not so sure this is the best use of law enforcement. Will they go after plumbers and carpenters or just fashionably-tragic young people. As one blogger said, "it seems to me the police in Flint have bigger cracks to fill."

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Best. Headline. Ever.

Jesus Loves You--And Your Orgasm

Bishops without penises

Jul 8th, 2008 | LONDON -- The Church of England's ruling body has voted its support for women to become bishops without giving traditionalist supporters of male-only priesthood the concessions they had sought.

One bishop broke down in tears at the meeting of senior British church leaders Monday in York, northern England, as he described his distress at the church's lack of willingness to accommodate traditionalists who have threatened to leave if they felt they were not adequately protected.

First off, yeah C of E...good on you. But WTF about accommodating those who threaten to leave if they're not "adequately protected." Why would that be a goal? This is an emerging paradigm for C of E and there are those who can't tolerate change of any kind. What do you say to those who've threatened to leave? You say, "Goodbye. Go in peace to love and serve the Lord."

There's really nothing else you can say. Yes it is painful but there's that messy life for you.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Homegrown Tomatoes

I love homegrown tomatoes. The best in the world are grown in Arkansas, USA. Don't even try to argue with me about it. Second runner up...Creole Tomatoes from Louisiana.

Friday, July 4, 2008


I want a hedgehog. If anyone has one that needs a home let me know.

Fr. Jake and the 4th of July

Fr. Jake ( a priest I thank God for calling in the Episcopal Church is closing his blog. He has been fighting the good fight and will now move to a new place where God is calling him. Thank you Fr. Jake for your service to God and TEC.

Today is my country's birthday. God is calling us to a new place. No war, no torture, no oppression, no fear. That is not a new place really. We have always been called here, we just haven't made it yet.

I love you straighten up and fly right!

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

News from Dorothy

It seems my friend the MadPriest has named me Dorothy. Maybe changing my name is a good thing at this time. It is true that some people have changed their names when their lives changed or when they wanted their lives to change.

Today I'm grateful that I live in such a quiet and peaceful neighborhood. No sounds of planes, trains or automobiles. The only noise is from a young man who plays his car stereo at a volume that literally rattles my windows. I don't mind it much though because it is just a few seconds when he leaves his house or comes home in the wee hours. I'm awake anyway and it is just too small a thing to get worried over.

I want to thank everyone who is praying for me. I've had such a sense of peace the last few days. I love you all.

Monday, June 9, 2008

The Episcopal Church

When I was in the hospital this last time I got a visit from Fr. Jason Alexander. I knew Jason a little bit several years ago and now he's a priest at the cathedral. For a long time I've been, well, afraid to go to church. I find myself being pulled back and it feels safe and comfortable.

I feel good today even though this fever won't go away. I have some energy and I'm going to do some things around the house.

Saturday, June 7, 2008

A Good Day

This has been a good day. Two of my best friends stopped by to visit. I'm not in a lot of pain. I feel happy. Thanks!

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Raining and pouring

Entergy came to turn off the electricity but we were able to have to rest of the day to come up with the money. We're down to crackers and canned tuna. How did everything go so wrong so fast? I'm not suicidal thinking my husband would be better off without me. At least if I died he'd get the life insurance and a way out of this hole.

God we need help. We've never turned away a friend or stranger in need. Please help us now.

Small things

I was actually able to leave the house yesterday. DH took me to the library (which has lots of comfy chairs) and fetched books for me. Then we went to Target and I drove the little scooter while we picked up a few necessities. Small things matter.

Friday, May 30, 2008

Rain keeps on pouring

Thanks to the medical bills that insurance doesn't cover we have $70 to live on the next two weeks. Tomorrow is our anniversary and I feel sad for my husband. He would be much better off without me.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Thank you kind people

Thanks to everyone from OCICBW.

Slouching towards Bethlehem

And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?
To amuse myself and laugh with the pain I've started a bucket list and a list of songs for my funeral.

One the bucket list so far, change my name to Rufus Leaking.

Song list so far: Into the Mystic, Van Morrison; Always Look on the Bright Side of Life, Monty Python; We Want the Funk, George Clinton and the Parliment/Funkadelics.

Please help me add to the list.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

High Tide

I was released from the hospital yesterday after 8 days and 2 surgical procedures. I have Polycystic Kidney Disease. One kidney is functioning at 14%, the other at 16%. It is pretty rough right now. Stones in both kidneys and a bad infection. I had to be taken by ambulance to the ER on April 30. I was so weak I couldn't stand up. I don't know for sure what is next, I'll see the urologist next week. I'm in constant pain so I'm on heavy duty narcotics. What fun...narced up or unable to breathe the pain is so bad.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Monday, February 4, 2008

Greatest. Funk. Band. Ever.

I am a connoisseur of funk. If I could find a little statue of George Clinton I'd put up a shrine. Ivan Neville's Dumpstaphunk gets my award for greatest funk band ever. I got to see them at the Granada in Dallas and I was just totally blown away. If you've got the funk you've gotta get some Dumpstaphunk!